In Regards To Yesterdays Post

I went out on a limb yesterday,

something I have been doing less and less here. 

I wrote what was on my mind

and in my heart. 

 I worried that it would be too raw for some people to read,

 or, more importantly,

that it would leave me

too raw,

too exposed. 

I've been having a difficult time posting here

because of fear. 

Fear of being judged or misunderstood. 

Fear of sharing too much of myself. 

I hold back so much of what I want to say

because it's scary

to expose certain aspects of my life to everyone. 

'Cause it's not always pretty.

I feel a lot of times like I have to be strong.

Like I have to put on a front

and smile

and act like I have a handle on everything.

I definitely do not.

What I've come to realize

is that admitting your weaknesses

is what makes you strong.

Admitting that I struggle to fulfill my roles of

wife,

mother,

daughter,

and friend

can only help me to figure out ways to be better at all of them.

I'm working on learning my limitations.

On figuring out what is

absolutely important in my life

and letting go of the rest.

I'm working on speaking my truth

and not just trying to put on a happy face.

I'm working on appreciating the here and now.

I'm working on being more open and honest

no matter how raw and exposed it may make me feel.

And I'm hoping that you'll stick around

and take the journey with me.